Daylight (or lack of it) is my main challenge right now, both in photography and daily life. It is so dark, so gray, all the time. We had our first snow today, and it was pretty, but it didn’t stick– it brightened the air briefly, but everything else is just wet and muddy. The sun rises around 7:45, and it starts getting dark at 3:30 in the afternoon. Frankly, it is very hard for me to feel motivated to do anything– I feel like the day’s almost over by the time I get home from walking my daughter to school. I know this isn’t true. It’s just that I was raised on sunshine– lots of it. I know all of the things I need to do to try to get my mood chemicals in order during the winter: exercise, take vitamin D supplements, eat more fatty fish, get outside every day regardless of weather… I know! I have done these things. Well, some of them… Sometimes. Mostly I’ve been drinking tea and spending too much time with my computer, and cleaning the house. I haven’t quite “plugged in” to life in Bury, and so I don’t have much of anything happening outside of the home– I average about one conversation a week with people other than Jeff and Amelia. As a true introvert, this isn’t as hard or sad as it may seem to many people, but it is kind of depressing and also means that there’s not a whole lot of interesting things going on over here. Sometimes that’s good, but I still feel a bit listless.
In the meantime, I am trying hard to embrace the long evenings and cozy weather. Amelia starts her two week Christmas break this week, and I am going to start reading Alice in Wonderland to her, and doing some holiday projects together. Jeff and I have enjoyed more time in the evening to relax, watch a movie or play card games. I have to keep reminding myself that this is a natural part of the yearly cycle, when animals hibernate and trees grow their roots deeper into the earth. I’m working on it!